*disclaimer* i'm not eating sour grapes, nor am i sad abt not gettin anything at the talent time... but juz to share sth with you guys...

This talent time will be judged by the folowing 5 categories.
1) Entertainment value
2)...
3)...
4)...
5) Contestants' ability to entertain the audience

Hmmm.

Did flagday today.. slacked ALOT... even managed to go for seed meet. hah. =) Enjoyed myself while toking to ruizhen. We are act very similar... personality -- mel, colour preferences -- earth colours, havin good brothers, can't click well wif classmates, dislike cheena songs... haha... let me reiterate my motto fer the year... Be a holy nerd. =)

hey. thanks man, fer being dere. it's weird, sometimes i counsel you, sometimes you counsel me. we'd better make sure either one of us are fine.. if not we'll be very depressed...

And thanks guys fer 'gracing' the occassion today.. the talent time... and thanks for all the affirmations and encouragements..

Lazy to type.. see ya guys.........

It's one bigg mess of feelings. But they are but feelings.

An inadvertent comment
Left on the mind to ferment
Exploding uncontrollably
Was you, inconsiderately
But hey look into my eyes
Do i look as if i care?

Act oh high and mighty
The world's beneath Your majesty
Guess you lost yourself
On your way back home last sunday
So hey look into my eyes
Do i look as if i care?

Fine, be pissed off you pissy pussy
Not like i'd even care if you cared
to look into my eyes
Do i look as if i care?

I'm so tired of being here
So tired of all these endless tears

Was brought back to the qn about whether life's simple. It is. It really is. No point getting pissed off all the time by things that happen to you that cannot be controlled. No point bitching around trying to seek attention and approval. Just live your life, happily doing wad you gotta do.

Be a holy nerd.

Is close camaraderie better than close friendship?

Hmmm. What's the main diff between close camaraderie and close frenship? The part abt sharing your secrets, being willing to be vulnerable to each other, that unique chemistry, growing together, and learning from each other. Is it necessary? All these stuff that's mentioned? It's not necessary, i guess, for growth. But it's essential, as an outlet of emotions, hurts, etc. For man wasn't created to be alone, but as a social being. A social being not just to share jokes, but to share life.

"The Lord God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him... So the Lord caused the man to fall into deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib..."

Watched 'American History X' during GP lectures. It's so.. uncensored. Hmmm. Still like the part when derek and that black guy was in prison... 'Don't you offend me, becuz' i'm da most important person in prison... i'm in charge of the underwear.' Hah.

this sounds very 'repeated'... but hey! who cares? it's true.. ripped it off..

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live.

Digressing...

Ya noe, i can't exactly find someone to share my heart wif in skh. And when so many crappy stuff starts falling on me, it feels like i'm struggling alone on this earth, trying very hard to survive, and only to survive. It feels really sad and it's like i'm juz one being on the face of tis earth, trying to scrap thru' this ordeal of living a life, and being contented with the fact that i've caused no significant harm to nobody while i'm living. And then i'll feel so depressed. Then God comes into the picture.

I wanna see God being more real in my studies. Cuz' i noe He is real.

hate my server... Up down, up down... up down... sigh sigh sigh.

Tomms ish skh again. And we as northeast would be starting our 40-day journal thingy. Yea, really excited becuz' believe that God would speak to us in a great way.

Nothing much to crap about... take care guys...